Monday, April 7, 2008

Day 1: Food, anyone?

Breakfast: 1/2 ww English muffin w/ 1/2 t. or less of apple butter, fruit & yogurt smoothie, egg
Snack: lowfat string cheese
Lunch: salad (romaine lettuce, tomatoes, 1/2 a cucumber, 2 slices crumbled turkey bacon, salad topping--1 T., Greek w/ Feta dressing--hardly any, it wasn't enough), 1/2 mandarin orange
Snack: several handfuls of carrots w/ fat-free ranch dip, banana
Dinner: Dijon-Roasted Salmon (1 1/2 servings), steamed broccoli & califlower

Exercise: 2.45 miles in 40 minutes on the treadmill (walking only), 10 minutes of arms

I'm so excited for today! I'm SO looking forward to seeing results!! However, I feel like I'm starving. Part of it's mental, part of it's real...I think. I've made it through one day. I tell myself that the pounds are melting away. Now it's off to bed so I can get up early again tomorrow.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Fresh Start

After 3 months of being wishy-washy, I'm starting over...or rather, buckling down. I've made a full-days menu for the next 2 weeks, including snacks. My calories will be cut down to between 950 and 1300 or so calories a day for 14 days. I'm dreading it, but also really excited. I've let myself go with eating the past few days & know I can make better choices. Really, would I ever want to eat another Six Dollar Burger from Carl's Jr? It was so much food, I doubt it.

So, I will begin my day numbers anew & will also post weight & measurements. I will take my initial weight & measurements tonight. I will normally take them first thing in the morning, but I really don't want to have to get up even earlier tomorrow to do it before I head to the gym. ...Okay, I could keep talking, but Jenna's needing to be fed. Give me a nice wahoo for tomorrow!

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Really embarassing!

I've been doing this blog for 3 months now. It had been about a month since I looked at Google Analytics, so I had forgotten that people other than my faithful commenters check my blog. I'm really horrified that there are all of you out there who check my "weight loss" blog that I don't even know & some that I do know. And you're all watching me make a fool of myself!!

I am going to redeem myself, though. Monday will be a whole new start for me. I've been working on my menu for the next 2 weeks & will go grocery shopping on Monday. I'm excited and scared at the same time. Doing Dr. Phil's 14-Day Rapid Start Plan is not easy. However, I know it yields results. I'm praying that's what I need to jump start my progress and get me on the path to permanently making good food choices.

And continue reading. I plan to do a giveaway sometime in the next month or so. It just might be something you will want. :) Now off to watch General Conference...I'm a few minutes late!

Day 88

Breakfast: Xango, 1/2 ww English muffin w/ apple butter, 2 slices turkey bacon
Snack: Grasshoppers & Fudge Stripped cookies--LOTS
Lunch: Spanish Red Beans & Rice
Snack: a few more bites of Spanish Red Beans & Rice
Dinner: Sticky Finger Rice Bowl--Wingers
Dessert: no-bakes w/ milk

Exercise: 2 1/2 + hours working in my yard

My eating was horrible today. In my mind, I allowed myself to do so, though. I think having Randy home now will help me do better. At least I'll be able to get to the gym next week! (By the way, I think Randy was really impressed with all I got done in the yard. I was still out working when he got home from his latest trip to Canada.)

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Day 87

Breakfast: All-Bran w/ milk, 2 slices turkey bacon
Snack: 1/2 grapefuit
Lunch: Gypsy Stew, ww crackers w/ cheese ball
Snack: LOTS of Grasshopper cookies
Dinner: Broiled Orange Roughy, steamed broccoli, cauliflower & carrots, and a baked sweet potato--shared w/ Sydney, so I didn't quite get a full serving of everything...but at least she's getting healthy food!
Dessert: no-bakes w/ a glass of milk

Exercise: I spent hours outside today working in my yard.

I feel like I'm on a ride that's out of control. I seriously feel like I'm an addict when it comes to eating junk. My meals are healthy, but when I eat sugar, I feel like I can't stop myself. I'm weaning Jenna now (tonight was my first night to not nurse her) & I'll be starting Dr. Phil's 14-day Rapid Start on Monday. My calories will be cut, but it will jump start weight loss & won't allow for splurging. It'll be tough, but it'll be good. I need to do it.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Day 86

Breakfast: yogurt w/ granola, hard-boiled egg, Xango juice--and this stuffed me. I should have only eaten half of my yogurt & granola.
Lunch: salad w/ dressing, whole-wheat crackers w/ cheese ball--not sure how many I ate, more than 1 serving, but I definitely didn't over do it like yesterday & I quit when I was satisfied.
Snack: 2 grasshopper cookies
Dinner: Skillet Chicken w/ Veggies, sweet potato, 2 fudgestriped cookies
Dessert: bowl of no-bake cookies w/ milk, LOTS of grasshopper cookies

Exercise: none

I had done so well with my eating earlier today. My girls have both been especially cranky today & I'm tired. I let my emotions get the best of me tonight and I ate badly. Life is definitely not easy, and I need to figure out a way to deal with my emotions without eating. I'm still working on reading Dr. Phil's book and am both anxious and hesitant to go full force with it. I don't know why I hesitate. I lost 20 lbs before eating right and following his guidance. For some reason it just seems so difficult to do again. But I know I can do it.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Day 85

Breakfast: 2 waffles w/ butter & sugar-free syrup, 2 slices turkey bacon, 1 oz of Xango, glass of milk
Lunch: 1/3 to 1/2 of a serving of Spanish Red Beans & Rice, salad w/ dressing, and then....LOTS of Grasshopper cookies & LOTS of a cheese ball on whole-wheat crackers
Dinner: fruit & yogurt smoothie

Exercise: 2.8 miles on the treadmill in 45 minutes & 5-10 minutes of abs. I walked the entire time on the treadmill today. I was aiming to keep my heart rate in a certain zone. It was SO hard to not run, but I think I have a tendency to over do it. Besides, it seems like running makes it go faster, for some reason. I need some additional education on the heart rate zones & why they are important. Anyone?

I also worked up a sweat in my garden this evening for about 30 minutes digging out more grass where the sod cutter couldn't get it. Now, if we can just get some good weather, I can finish up with my garden prep. I'm hoping to get lots more done in my yard later this week.

I went to the store just before lunch (it was when I was out and about), and fell prey to their marketing. I bought cookies that were on sale & also a cheese ball because it sounded good...I even sought the cheese ball out. And after my initial lunch, which was very healthy, I binged. I just ate and ate and ate. There's something to be said about eating in front of the TV. I doubt I would have binged if I had been sitting at the kitchen table. Afterward, I felt sick knowing all the calories I had just eaten. Hours later, I still felt gross & full. I went light on my dinner, since I wasn't very hungry. I knew I just needed something little. I just hope it minimized the damage...