Monday, March 31, 2008

Day 84

Breakfast: milk, 1 slice of turkey bacon, 1/2 grapefruit, 1 waffle (I made it w/ part whole-wheat flour) w/ butter & sugar-free syrup
Lunch: Gypsy Stew, 3 1/2 squares of pumpkin dessert
Dinner: Spanish Beans & Rice (super easy & yummy), salad w/ dressing, pears
Dessert: 1 more square of pumpkin dessert

Exercise: 3.7 miles on the treadmill in 45 minutes (1 of walking, 2.7 of running), 10 minutes of arm weights

It felt so good to be on the treadmill today. I couldn't believe how great I felt. Getting some good rest this weekend made a huge difference!

Attention

Tiff, Vanessa & Dixie:

I've found a race that looks good to me. It's the Save-a-Sister Run For Breast Cancer (10k, 5k & 1 mile walk) on Saturday, Oct. 25th at 9am in St. George. How does this date look for each of you?

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Day 83

Breakfast: Here's what my wonderful husband made me. :) scrambled eggs w/ green chile & cheese, Xango juice, whole wheat toast w/ butter
Lunch: graham cracker, 10 almonds
Dinner: Gypsy Stew, whole wheat roll (I made the stew w/o any meat because it could be made w/o it, and my crockpot wasn't big enough. With meat, a serving is 260 calories, so I'm guessing it was closer to the 200 mark the way I made it.)
Dessert: Pumpkin dessert w/ whipped cream (2 servings...1 too many)

Exercise: day off

I don't think today has been a super high calorie day. Glad to have one of these days on occasion. I need to make it happen more often--only with more fruits & veggies.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Day 82

Breakfast: oatmeal w/ sugar & milk, 2 slices turkey bacon
Snack: I licked the bowl & spoon from homemade chocolate frosting
Lunch: unfried rice
Snack/Dinner: ham, funeral potatoes, 2 rolls, fruit/jello salad, pumpkin dessert w/ whipped topping, Marinated Sesame Chicken
Snack: no-bakes, glass of milk

Exercise: blessed day off!!

It's been a strange day for me. I spent 4 hours serving a meal at a funeral. I had gotten there at 1:30, but we didn't feed everyone until around 3:30 or 4, which is an unusual time for a meal. The dinner stretched on and on. Just being around the yummy smelling food made me hungry. We were invited to eat, but by the time we did, all of the salad was gone. I could go for a seriously good salad right about now!!

Friday, March 28, 2008

Day 81

Breakfast: (10 am) hard-boiled egg, 2 small slices of pepperoni pizza, 1 small breadstick w/ marinara sauce
Lunch: 2 slices homemade bread w/ butter, lowfat cheese stick, mandarin orange
Dinner: Unfried Rice--yummy
Dessert: bowl of no-bake cookies, glass of milk

Exercise: 2.85 miles in 45 minutes on the treadmill, ab exercises for 15 minutes. I ended up mostly walking today. My heart rate just wasn't having it and I didn't want to kill myself. I feel like such a loser having to walk, even though I know I shouldn't.

It's been a rough food week for me. I'm not sure what my deal is, but tonight I'm thinking that my struggles this week with both food and life have been stemming from lack of sleep. As hard as I try, I just can't seem to get to bed early enough to wake up at 5:30am, but wake up I do. I'm hoping to get more sleep this weekend & will try to do better next week. Wish me well.

Day 80

Breakfast: bran muffin, 2 slices turkey bacon, fruit & yogurt smoothie
Snack: lowfat string cheese
Lunch: pb & honey on whole-wheat, tortilla chips
Snack: V8, chocolate bunny, 11 almonds
Dinner: 3 slices of pepperoni pizza--Little Caesar's

Exercise: 2.3 miles in 36 minutes on the eliptical, 1 rep of arm weights, 3 reps of 4 different leg weights & 1 rep of leg/butt weights

I didn't get all of my food written down yesterday, but I felt like I was eating junk. My water wasn't good, either.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Day 79: I've gotta kick this sugar habit!

Breakfast: yogurt w/ granola, banana, hard-boiled egg
Snack: 6 almonds
Lunch: M&Ms (finished them off), 2 mini Reese's pb cups, Hershey's chocolate bunny, plate full of tortilla chips w/ melted cheese
Snack: mandarin orange
Dinner: tortilla chips, Unstuffed Peppers
Snack: Hershey's chocolate bunny

Exercise: I went with a lower intensity today and did 12.75? miles on the bike in 35 minutes. The resistance was really low so that my heart rate was in the "fat burning" zone. The bike's computer system kinda annoys me because it didn't seem as responsive as it should have been to my heart rate. I then did 10 minutes on the rowing machine & a few other floor exercises and stretches. I also tried jumping rope, but my bladder wasn't having it. Looks like I should wear some depends when I want to jump rope. I got to wear new workout clothes today, so it was fun.

My eating has been really crappy today. Not much else to be said. I'm in a cooking rut, too. I've yet to make dinner this week. Thank goodness I have a few freezer meals left & have been able to use them. Blah!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Day 78

Breakfast: hard-boiled egg, slice of homemade bread w/ butter, yogurt, banana
Snack: 5 cookies
Lunch: orange chicken & fried rice--Panda Express
Snack: 4 squares of carrot cake, 7 almonds
Dinner: turkey veggie stew, whole-wheat roll
Snack: shot of Xango

Exercise: 2.8 miles in 36 minutes on the treadmill, then arm weights & abs. I need to do something lower impact tomorrow. My legs & hips have been aching all day.

I felt like my day was decent, until I looked at my snacks. Geez! Both the cookies and carrot cake are gone now, thank goodness! I actually ate the cookies because I was still so hungry after breakfast. Not a wise choice, I know.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Day 77

Breakfast: slice of homemade bread w/ butter, hard-boiled egg, banana
Lunch: LaZonya, 3 pieces of carrot cake, glass of milk
Snack: small handful of M&M's, mandarin orange
Dinner: turkey veggie stew, whole-wheat roll, piece of carrot cake

Exercise: 4.4 miles in 56 minutes on the treadmill. I've NEVER run that far! I really pushed myself today. I have to thank Tammy, though, because I would increase my treadmill as she did, even though she was running much faster. Of course, Merri was on the other side of her increasing her treadmill & running crazy fast. I really had a battle inside of myself thinking I couldn't keep running, but I'm so glad I did. Thanks for the advice and encouragement, girls. I can do anything!

Great day minus the carrot cake. It's almost gone, though. And the Easter candy isn't tempting me so much. I'm feeling improvement.

Anti-Diet

Last night, my brother-in-law teasingly asked if the dessert I made had any real sugar in it. (I actually don't think I've ever made anything with Splenda in it that he's eaten & I rarely use Splenda, anyway.) After I assured him that it had lots of sugar in it, he said, "Well, aren't you on a diet?" Ummm....NO!!!!

I just want to make it very clear that my attempt to lose weight is not a diet. I am not temporarily changing anything to lose weight. I completely understand that losing weight & maintaining weight loss come from a lifestyle of eating healthy & exercising. I am trying to eat less sugar, but that's not a temporary thing. I want my desire for sugar to decrease permanently! So for any of you out there who were wondering (or not), I've never been on a diet & I'm not on one now. Or as, my friend, Tammy, said, "Everyone's on a diet. A diet is how you eat." In that case, I guess I am. And so are you.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Day 76: Happy Easter!

Breakfast: hard-boiled egg, slice of homemade bread w/ butter, mandarin orange
Snack: 6 almonds, Xango juice, square of carrot cake
Lunch: Sticky Finger Rice Bowl (what I didn't eat last night)
Snack: 2 cookies, Reese's pb cups, sliver of carrot cake
Dinner: slice of ham, 1 1/2 servings funeral potatoes, green bean casserole, salad w/ ranch dressing, roll (part wheat?) w/ butter, pasta/fruit/chicken salad
Dessert: 2 squares of Sigrid's Carrot Cake (I used applesauce instead of the oil & fat-free cream cheese for the frosting. It still had lots of fat w/ the eggs & butter, though. At least what I made was an improvement.)
Snack: tons of Reese's pb cups, M&M's & a whole-wheat roll

Exercise: day of rest

I ate so much today. It's likely that I've even forgotten some. I've definitely noticed that I'm retaining water over the past few days because of how I've eaten. So much sugar...blech!

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Day 75

Breakfast: oatmeal w/ milk & sugar, 2 slices turkey bacon, mandarin orange
Lunch: 2 turkey hotdogs on white buns, Salsa Verde Doritos, salad w/ lowfat rasperry vinagrette dressing
Snack: 3 choc & pb chip cookies, small handful of almonds
Dinner: Sticky Finger Rice Bowl (2/3 of it), some fries w/ ketchup--Wingers
Snack: carrot, banana, 1 cookie, 6 almonds

Exercise: short walk around the block w/ Jenna. I had good intentions today. My late-evening baking has gotten in my way this weekend. Last night it was cookies for Alan & I ended up staying up too late to get to the gym early this morning. Tonight, I was baking dessert for tomorrow's Easter dinner & couldn't get to the gym like I had planned. I can't feel too bad, though...Hitting the gym 4 times in a week is still good.

My appetite for sugar today was much lower today. I still had a few things, but I was around SO much more that I didn't even desire to eat (cupcakes, more Easter candy, etc.). It felt really good. In fact, I opted for the banana tonight instead of the Reese's pb cups on the counter--and I actually wanted the banana!

I did have a higher fat day than normal. I get acid reflux when I have too much fat, and I've had a bit tonight. Annoying as it is, it's nice to know that my body doesn't really like it & isn't used to it. That's a good thing.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Day 74: A different story

Breakfast: vanilla yogurt w/ granola (I didn't realize that's all I ate until I just put it down. I was too busy trying to clean up and get my girls fed. Plus, it filled me up.)
Snack: homemade applesauce
Lunch: more applesauce (had to finish what I had dished up), Parmesan Turkey Cutlets Over Angel Hair
Snack: 4 or 5 slices of homemade bread w/ butter, 1 Hershey's kiss, 1 M&M
Dinner: carrots, LaZonya (2 servings worth?)--I was still hungry & finished up my girls' food.
Snack: 2 cookies worth of cookie dough & 3 chocolate chip & pb chip cookies

Exercise: 2 miles in 31 minutes of cross-training on the eliptical, 13 minutes of rowing (if you've never tried this, I think it's really difficult & a great workout), stretching, calf exercises (just a few), arm weights

Today has felt so much better with my eating. I haven't craved the sweets. I still ate plenty, but really don't feel like I went overboard. I made a special effort to eat both the applesauce and the carrots. That's an effort I should be in the habit of doing every day.

So, my brother and his wife came to stay at our house overnight. Alan's birthday is on Monday, so I decided to surprise him with the cookies that he really likes. And therefore, I ate a few.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Day 73

Breakfast: whole-wheat English muffin w/ applebutter, egg, peaches, cottage cheese
Lunch: Parmesean Turkey Cutlet Over Angel Hair
Snack: 3 Hershey's chocolate eggs, 2 handfuls of tortilla chips
Dinner: Delicate Baked Fish, Oven Fries, California veggies, 2 slices of homemade bread (1/2 white, 1/2 wheat) w/ butter
Snack: 3 slices bread w/ butter, 4 Hershey's chocolate eggs

Exercise: 3.3 miles on 45 minutes on the treadmill, stretching & leg exercises

Another day where I feel starved. I'm not getting enough fruits, though.

Day 72

Breakfast: 2 slices turkey bacon, 1/2 grapefruit, bran muffin
Lunch: Mexican Black Beans
Snack: 6? pb cookies w/ glass of milk, not sure if I ate something else...
Dinner: Parmesan Turkey Cutlets Over Angel Hair, green beans
Snack: 5 Hershey's chocolate eggs, 1/2 c. sugar-free & fat-free butterscotch pudding w/ whipped cream, handful of tortilla chips, plateful of tortilla chips w/ melted cheese

Exercise: day off at the gym. I took my girls on a leisurely 1 mile walk.

I didn't feel like I could stop snacking today. I just wanted to eat and eat and eat.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Day 71

Breakfast: egg, white grape juice, malt-o-meal w/ spoonful of sugar & milk
Snack: 3 Reese's pb cup minis (7 is a serving)
Lunch: Mexican Black Beans
Snack: 8? pb cookies
Dinner: country fried steak, mashed potatoes, steamed veggies (don't think they had any butter on them), one fry--Denny's in downtown SLC at 8:30pm after the Jazz autograph session

Exercise: 25 minutes on the ArcTrainer, 7 minutes on the StairMaster

It's been a long day. Not the greatest of eating days. I definitely think being tired is one of the factors in my poor eating lately. I won't be going to the gym in the morning tomorrow because we got home pretty late. The weather should be nice, so I'll have to take the girls on a walk & hit the gym on Thursday.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Day 70: Peckish Evening

Breakfast: fruit & yogurt smoothie, 2 slice turkey bacon
Snack: whole-wheat English muffin w/ apple butter
Lunch: Mexican Black Beans, corn muffin
Snack: broccoli & cauliflower w/ fat-free dip, 5 graham crackers w/ strawberry frosting
Dinner: Grilled Teriyaki Elk w/ brown rice, broccoli & carrots, bite of corn--I probably ate more than a serving of dinner. The elk was SOOOOO good. I'll try to post the recipe soon.
Snack: serving and a half of Reese's peanut butter cup mini's, 2 crackers w/ pepperjack cheese

Exercise: 3.6 miles on the treadmill in 50 minutes & stretching. For those who knew me in high school, would you have ever thought I would be able to run like this? I know I'm not fast, but I can do the distance. I had a terrible time getting out of bed this morning, but my run felt great.

I've had an emotionally rough couple of days, which I think I've handled pretty well food-wise...until tonight. I'm extremely tired, and the rest of my family was so peckish that I joined in. (Peckish is Australian slang for having the muchies or wanting to snack...thanks to Randy & his mission, peckish has become a common word in our house.) I over did my food today. There's always tomorrow. Here's to a good night of sleep!

Day 69

Breakfast: 2 cinnamon buns, glass of milk
Lunch: pb & honey on wheat
Snack: Reese's pb cup egg, a few bunny grahams
Dinner: Mexican Black Beans (Yum), corn muffin, broccoli & cauliflower w/ dip
Snack: a few tortilla chips, no-bake cookies, glass of milk

Exercise: day off

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Day 68

Breakfast: 1 1/2 scrambled eggs, 2 Glazed Cinnamon Nut Buns, shot of Xango
Snack: banana
Lunch: Garden Veggie Pizza, tortilla chips w/ salsa con queso
Snack: lots of Reese's pieces eggs, serving of Snickers minis
Dinner: Sloppy Joe on whole-wheat buns

Exercise: much needed day off

Friday, March 14, 2008

Day 67: Sweet Satisfaction

Breakfast: 2/3 of a banana, 1 c. vanilla yogurt w/ 1/2 c. granola, 2 slices turkey bacon
Lunch: Mexican LaZonya, peaches, 1/2 c. cottage cheese, 4 Reese's pieces eggs, 1 Hershey's Creamy Egg (if you're not familiar, both the Reese's & Hershey's are small little candies...neither of what I ate are a full serving size)
Snack: small V8
Dinner: Garden Veggie Pizza (1 serving), 6 Reese's pieces eggs

Exercise: 3.25 miles in about 55 minutes. I only walked today, but made sure I got my heartrate into a "fat-burning" zone. My legs are still really sore from yesterday, but I think today was just what I needed without overdoing it. Thanks, Karen, for getting to the gym with me!

I haven't talked about my weight much lately. Even with going to the gym, my weight has been going up. The past few days, it had gone up a pound each day! Today it stayed the same as yesterday, which was nice. Others are telling me, and I'm telling myself, that I'm gaining muscle and the weight-loss is coming. I sure hope so! I know that exercising is great for me, and I enjoy doing it, but it's hard to stay really positive about it when I'm not seeing immediate results. I'm hoping that I'll break through this in the next week or two. I'm satisfied with my day.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Day 66: Ups & Downs

Breakfast: egg, 1/2 grapefruit, All-Bran w/ milk
Snack: banana
Lunch: 1 1/2 chicken & bean enchiladas, green beans, 3 Reese's pieces eggs
Snack: tons of Snickers minis--what am I doing to myself? Can't wait until Easter is over to be rid of all candy!
Dinner: 2 slices turkey, 1/2 slice mozzarella cheese on a roll (part wheat?), small serving pasta salad, raw veggies w/ dip, fruit & cookie (not sure, really) salad--RS birthday dinner. The good news is, I was easily able to not eat any of the many cakes there.

Exercise: 2.7 miles on the treadmill in 35 minutes. I did 2.5 miles in 31 minutes. Then we did some leg & ab exercises. My legs are completely beat today. I'm exhausted!

Today has been tough just because I've been so tired. Tomorrow will have to be an easy day at the gym for me & I'll take Saturday off. If I hadn't sat at the computer with the bag of Snickers, I would have had a great day. I'll pick myself back up and try again tomorrow. All I can do is my best.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Day 65: Improved

Breakfast: 2 slices turkey bacon, bran muffin, fruit & yogurt smoothie
Snack: shot of Xango, banana
Lunch: 2 fajitas
Snack: 8 Snickers minis (2 servings worth)
Dinner: 1 1/2 Chicken & Bean Enchiladas, green beans
Snack: 8 more Snickers minis, 4 Reese's Pieces Eggs

Exercise: 2.75 miles on the treadmill in 35 minutes, then ab & arm exercises. I shaved 3 minutes off 2.5 miles compared to my time yesterday! I'm feeling good as I run and am able to increase my speed a little more each day. I'm slightly sore all over, but it's a good feeling. Today, I'm especially loving that I was up so early & was able to get so much done.

My afternoon snack was one of necessity. I had been gone all afternoon & came home with a horrid headache. I took some Tylenol & tried to close my eyes for a few minutes, but after a while I felt nauseous. I think my blood sugar was low, so I decided I ought to have some candy. My after dinner snack was not necessary. My day wasn't perfect, but it was an improvement from yesterday.

I have a goal of getting ready for bed at 9pm now so I can get to bed earlier. I need to get 8 hours of sleep. Last night on Biggest Loser, one of the trainers talked about the importance of getting enough sleep while trying to lose weight to keep hormones and your metabolism in balance. Heck, I love sleep (& need it), so I'll try that!

New Recipes

I've posted some new recipes at Recipe Swap. Fajitas, bean dip & such. They're super yummy...go check them out!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Day 64

Breakfast: hard-boiled egg, Xango juice, bran muffin, cheese stick
Snack: cupcake
Lunch: 3 slices pizza, 2 cupcakes--Oh, so nutritious, I KNOW!
Snack: 2 cupcakes
Dinner: fajita, thick slice of pineapple, more cupcakes--so many I lost count

Exercise: 2.5 miles on the treadmill in 35 minutes. I'm increasingly getting faster and faster. And sweating more and more. We also did arm weights & such for about 30 minutes. I even benched 45 pounds (the bar w/o weights), which is quite the accomplishment for me. I haven't done that since PE my freshman year of high school--12 years ago!

I've had a lot of crappy cupcakes today. I'm seriously too tired tonight to even want to think about it, though. I'm feeling a lot of disappointment in myself tonight. I need to take to heart Dr. Phil's (and Ollie's) advice to get the junk out of my house. I did it 2 years ago and I didn't die, and I need to do it again.

Can I rant for just a second? Good. I'm just so tired of not doing well with my eating and with my dirty house. I feel like I can never tackle it all and I'm buried under a pile of burdens from that right now. Oh, I can't wait until I get out of this funk & can do better. I'm seriously thinking that I'm experiencing PMS the past few months, because these feelings come in almost monthly waves. I haven't felt like I've had PMS-type stuff in years, so I'm not enjoying the hormones at all! Okay, done now. I'm so tired & need to get to bed. Tomorrow can be better.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Day 63: Blur

Breakfast 1: hard-boiled egg
Breakfast 2: 2 or 3 breakfast cookies...I was seriously so tired I don't know...
Lunch: 1 fajita, 2 Snickers minis
Snack: a few Cheddar Bunnies*, 1/2 of a banana
Dinner: 4 slices of pepperoni pizza, 2 breadsticks--Little Caesar's
Dessert: 2 cupcakes--no, make that 4 cupcakes

Exercise: 2.3 miles in 33 or 34 minutes, then ab exercises & leg weights

I think this is an accurate accounting of my day. Sydney woke up at 4am and got in our bed. I didn't sleep well at all the rest of the night. When I got up at 5:30am to go to the gym, Sydney was awake as ever. I'm not sure what her deal was. As an answer to prayer, she fell asleep on our way home from grocery shopping so I could get a nap. So, my day has been a bit of a blur.

*I've become increasing concerned about the snacks I give to my girls. I think Sydney has a cavity, which makes me want to really limit her sugar. I found the Annie's brand of snacks at the store today. They are made with whole-grain & are mostly organic. I really like the thought of giving my girls whole-grain snacks. It was a happy, feel good find for me.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Day 62: Noticeable

Breakfast: honey-nut cheerios w/ milk, 2 slices turkey bacon, banana
Lunch: apple
Dinner: Crock-Pot Fajitas (yum!)
Snack: more Snickers minis
Snack: (This was actually a strange craving...) hard-boiled egg

Exercise: day of rest...but then again, I did take Sydney on a 30-minute walk around the neighborhood

I put on a button up shirt today, expecting to wear an undershirt and not be able to button it up past my bust--as it has been since I had Jenna. However, today it fit!! My chest hasn't changed sizes really, so it must be a little bit of that on top of my back fat that's decreasing. I'm really happy that I can notice a difference!

I did good except for the Snickers. I'll have to share the Crock-Pot Fajita recipe, too. Stay tuned--someday I'll get myself to post some of the more recent recipes I've used.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Day 61: The last day

Breakfast: 2 breakfast cookies, glass of milk
Snack: 2 Reese's peanut butter cups
Lunch: part serving of 7 Layer Bean dip, bean mixture (basically homemade refried beans...I promise to share both recipes soon), chips
Snack: several handfuls of Snickers minis. Yes, I broke into the Easter candy.
Dinner: Glazed Salmon, rice, steamed broccoli & carrots--Wingers
Snack: fresh pineapple

Exercise: none

Randy's finally on his way home tonight after spending 5 long days in Canada. I'm so glad. I've eaten out more than usual this week, and I think it has just been an excuse to escape the monotony here at home. I did good eating out tonight because I normally get the Sticky Finger Rice Bowl, which is a little less healthy (but oh, so yummy!). Good thing I love salmon! I look forward to getting a good start next week to both my eating & my exercising. Hey, I already have ingredients set out for tomorrow night's crock-pot dinner!

Friday, March 7, 2008

Day 60: Back on Track

Breakfast: 1/4 c. homemade applesauce (Jenna ate the rest of what I had for myself...I tell you, she's an EATER!), egg, whole-wheat English muffin w/ applebutter
Lunch: Mexican LaZonya
Snack: banana, fresh pineapple
Dinner: 7-Layer bean dip w/ tortilla chips (2 servings). Yes, this IS a Zonya recipe! I also had probably 1 1/2 servings of Teddy Grahams, and a few more chips w/ salsa con queso.

Exercise: 30-minute walk around the neighborhood w/ my girls

To start off on a bit of a tangent, I love that I have homemade stuff that I can pull out of my pantry to eat. It's so much more rewarding eating applesauce or applebutter, or whatever, that I made and not from a jar I bought. I can't wait to put away more this coming fall. I can't wait for my garden, too! Really, I can hardly contain my excitement!

Today was a day to do what I need to do. I've slacked off horribly. My scale played at naughty trick on me this, morning, too. I first stepped on it and it was below 130. I stepped on it again, same thing. I thought, surely this isn't right!? A few minutes later I came back and it was up 7 pounds from my first little weigh-in. What? Now, I'm not concerned that the second reading was wrong, because it's probably right. But why did my scale change so drastically? Little scale, please don't play tricks on me or decide to give faulty readings!

I feel good about today. I did eat a bit too much at dinner time, but it was better than it's been. I still don't feel like I've got great focus, but I can only take it a day at a time. (And who has time while single parenting?? Sooo glad Randy will be back fairly soon!) Thanks, Tiff, for telling me that I've got to stop eating cookies. And thanks for your advice, too, Janae. I'm going to make it a goal to not eat treats alone anymore. I think that will help with my portion control.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Day 59: Survival Mode

Breakfast: whole-wheat English muffin w/ applebutter, 2 slices turkey bacon, 1/2 c. cottage cheese, peaches
Lunch: 6 cake cookies, Mexican 5-Bean Soup
Dinner: quarter pounder w/ cheese, fries--Wendy's
Dessert: 1/2 c. fat-free frozen yogurt w/ caramel & chocolate topping

Exercise: none...only because I can't leave my girls home alone while I go to the gym...(It happens when I have a traveling husband)...of course, I COULD do some other form...

Another not so great day. I actually lucky my girls and I are still alive. (Sydney's screaming and such are driving me nuts!!!) It's difficult for me to continue eating right when I don't make meals because Randy's gone. I have freezer meals that I've stored, but I eat those for lunch, too, so it gets old. I know I should do better, but at this point, I'm just hoping to survive the week. Just so you know, I'm not resigning...I just need to refocus & reread some of my great motivational/instructional books. Next on my list: Dr's Phil's Ultimate Weight Solution.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Day 58: I need to take a step back.

Breakfast: whole-wheat English muffin w/ apple butter, 2 slices turkey bacon, fruit & yogurt smoothie
Snack: banana
Lunch: stir-fry w/ brown rice (2 servings worth)
Snack: 9 cake cookies
Dinner: multigrain tortilla chips w/ cheese dip, more cookies (6?)

Exercise: If cleaning my tub counts, then I exercised. (Hey, anything that requires you to climb into it with a grout brush to scrape away all the soap scum & hard water deposits should be counted as exercise!)

I'm done eating for the night. My teeth are brushed and I'm really done. I did well earlier, but got out of control again. I fear I've created a cookie monster. Sydney will beg me for cookies and her request today was cake cookies. That's no excuse for me to make them or eat them.

I've lost focus. I'm not doing what it takes to reach my goals in a timly manner. It's time for me to reevaluate where I'm going and what I want and how I need to get there. Does anyone have some extra time, energy, and focus they want to lend me??

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Day 57: Pig out

Pre: a few ounces of white grape juice (Not sure if you know why I do this, but it's so I have a little something in my system before working out.)
Breakfast: 1 1/2 servings of old fashioned oatmeal w/ milk + a spoonful of sugar, 2 eggs
Lunch: lg popcorn chicken (shared w/ my girls), mashed potatoes & gravy--from KFC (I normally don't like KFC, but I saw their commerical as I ate my breakfast and decided I wanted some of it today.), Tostitos Multigrain tortilla chips (several servings worth), cheese & salsa dip (several servings worth, probably), cinnamon roll (courtesy of Steffani, my new VT...YUM!)
Dinner: big salad, split pea soup, 3 whole-wheat crackers
Snack: fudgesicle

Exercise: 2.2 miles on the treadmill in 34 minutes, various ab workouts for about 20 or so minutes--It was a crackup with Merri & Tammy. I had fun girls!

There's trouble with my eating. 2 things: lack of fruits & veggies and eating LOTS. I'm finding that I'm starving at breakfast and lunch, so I'm eating whatever is easiest to get my hands on. Not so good. Although I like my routine of at least getting showered before I head downstairs after the gym, I'm thinking I need to change it up and EAT first thing when I get home to get my appetite under control. I tried to do much better at dinner time tonight.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Day 56: Yummy Stir-Fry!

Pre: a few ounces of white grape juice
Breakfast: fruit & yogurt smoothie, turkey bacon, the rest of the pb cookies--the result of going back to bed after working out & then not eating until 9:45am...
Lunch: Split pea soup, 3 whole-wheat crackers (1 serving)
Snack: V8
Dinner: Saucy Almond Chicken Stir-Fry w/ brown rice
Snack: no-bakes, small glass of milk

Exercise: 10 minutes on the Arc Trainer, on which I did 1/2 a mile. (This actually is the most similar to cross-country skiing with the muscles it works. I have some sore inner thigh muscles from the little bit I did!), 2.7 miles on the treadmill walking & jogging for 42 minutes, and 5 minutes of arm weights

Randy decided I could have a treat tonight and got out enough cocoa for me to make no-bakes. How sweet. It's nice to enjoy it once in a while & not feel guilty.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Day 55: Glad this day is over

Breakfast: 2 breakfast cookies, glass of milk
Lunch: pb & honey sandwich on whole-wheat bread, hot dog w/ ketchup, mustard & relish on whole-wheat bread, handful of Teddy Grahams
Dinner: Split Pea Soup, whole-wheat roll
Dessert: a dozen peanut butter cookies. (I should not have given in to Randy & Sydney begging me to make something. Randy was even ready to pull out the cocoa, I think.)

Exercise: day off

I've struggled with getting my fruits & veggies in the past few days. I'm also not sure why I just can't get portion control down when it comes to desserts. We had a very busy day, and I was starving at lunch, so I was seriously searcing for something to eat & that's when I found hot dogs in the freezer. It's been another not-so-great eating day.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

All or Nothing?

"...It's never an all or nothing situation. You use what you need of the habits--a bit of this one, a bit of that--depending on the circumstances at hand...Always remember, you're not attempting something, so you can't fail at it. You're doing it! You're taking a step, then another, and another, toward better health. And each of those steps is a success in itself!"

Day 54: All Teddy Grahamed Out!

Pre: a few ounces of white grape juice
Breakfast: honey-nut cheerios w/ milk, banana, 1 slice turkey bacon
Lunch: Kickin' Chicken w/ fries, green beans, 19 chocolate chip Teddy Grahams (24 is a serving)
Snack: baby carrots w/ ranch dressing, Teddy Grahams (not sure how many)
Dinner: (at Randy's sister's house) salad w/ ranch dressing, green beans (I think they were buttered. Why do people do that??), lasagna, garlic bread
Dessert: chocolate cupcake, 1/2 c. or less of strawberry ice cream
Snack: more Teddy Grahams

Exercise: 3 miles on the treadmill in 45 minutes. I went to the gym by myself today, and I was so bored after 20 minutes that I just had to do it to make it go quicker...JOG, that is! I did it for a few minutes, then slowed to a walk for a few minutes (my heart needed it!), then jogged again. It felt so good the second time!

I was so hungry today. I couldn't get enough to eat tonight. I'm still hungry & could eat--anything but more Teddy Grahams, that is! Oh, and I didn't weigh and measure myself today. I was definitely up after dinner last night, so I'll give myself a few days to get back on track. I was also in a super big hurry between working out and getting to my gardening class, so I didn't have time to do it even if I had wanted to.